I can’t take anymore of this. I’m sick and tired of being a stranger in my own house. I don’t want to be estranged from my mother. Now she’s changed the rules of the game. She’s bringing others into this like my friends and my teachers. I don’t want my flaws and my private problems out for the world to know about. Teachers at LCS are different. They are so involved with the latest gossip that I’m surprised they can even function as teachers. I don’t want everything out there for everyone to see. Everyone has their secrets, things that they aren’t proud of. The way that I’ve treated my mother is one of those things for me. I can’t believe some of the things I’ve said to her. She just pushes me and pushes me until I snap and say something that I end up regretting later. She takes some pretty cheap shots. Nothing is off limits for her. Past boyfriends, my inner circle of friends, my integrity; anything that she can use against me she will. She’s told me that I’m a manipulative little brat who uses my dad to get my way. She says I’m a bully that makes people support me. She told me I was a mean little bitch for turning my father against her. She told me that if they have problems in their relationship, it’s my fault. She told me I’m deceitful and would not think twice about lying to get my way. I’ve never had my greatest flaws laid out before me like that before. Maybe she’s right. I’m far from perfect. I find myself battling these things every day. Who is she to tell me what I’m doing wrong. She’s always telling me that God wants me to go to the Air Force or He wouldn’t have given me that opportunity. Who is she to tell me what God wants for me? Who is she to play God in my life? After a certain point, I need to make my own choices in my life. If I fail then I fail. It will be my fault and my fault alone. However, to pull everything out from under me at the last minute while I’m still working my ass off at school, trying to get my full ride scholarship at Cameron. I have so many expenses and so few income returns. I feel like I’m drowning in everything that I need. There’s no way that I’ll be able to pay for everything. I feel so helpless. I have a few extremely generous job opportunities and I just hope that they will be able to pay for my new car that I’ll need, car insurance, my cell phone, rent, books, and other college stuff. I can’t believe this is happening to me.